Even with all of my planning, scheduling, preparations, and and endless thinking...things STILL do not always run smoothly. That's when disappointment sets in. I've come to learn (the hard way!) that I ultimately have no control of what happens. I can plan my course but God directs my steps. (Proverbs 16:9)
Disappointment.....ahhh that terrible feeling that we all feel when things do not turn out the way we wanted it to. I can say without a doubt, that I've been MORE disappointed this year than any in a very long time. The person that I depended on the most let me down, the plans that I made were no longer happening, my son and I were both diagnosed with a disease that has no cure, my house had to be gutted in a day and I couldn't do a thing about it, my kids lost someone that they looked up to, I came to the realization that I am not superwoman! I have more appointments in a week than most have in a year, I'm 42 and not where I thought I'd be by now. Talk about disappointments! Those are only the big ones!
So....why is my title He gives and takes away??? This is where it turns good....
God is faithful! He gives and takes away (Job 1:21) When He takes away....it hurts! We don't understand it and we may never know why but when He gives.....He gives good! Amen!
He's given me a great job! (although I have to remind myself of that when it gets tough..lol)It's been 7 years and they have supported me through some tough times!
He's given me 3 amazing kids that He trusted ME to raise!
He's given me circumstances good and bad....to help me grow.
He's redeeming me from a very bad relationship and allowing me to have the things in life that I deserve... was blinded by the devil's schemes.
He's given me the greatest friends ever and have made some AWESOME new friendships! I absolutely LOVE the encouragement they've given. You all know who you are. xoxoxo
He's given me a mom and dad that have always adored me.
Yes he's taken away...but I don't want to focus on those things.
I want to focus on what He's given me...even during the past 3 weeks..I've had 45 tubes of blood taken...yes 45! I wanted to crack under stress and my support system lifted me back up with calls, encouragement, visits, flowers, food, prayers. OMG! I LOVE MY LIFE!
Thank you God for giving and taking away......
